I've been pretty lazy with writing this, sorry. A year ago I wasn't even thinking about being an exchange student and now I am living 3615 miles away from home! I can't even fathom just how fast time is flying! It is actually pretty scary, I mean two months into my exchange already, and in about 2 weeks I will be moving to my second home. Hopefully the move will help with the homesickness I have been feeling lately. A couple of weeks ago the whole "vacation" feeling wore off and I had to go to all of these family birthday parties where the danish was so overwhelming and I really started to miss the foods I'm used to back home (especially breakfast foods.) This is why I think it all started. But I am always really sad and just want to go home long enough to hug my Mama, Bubba, siblings, Mom, Da, Dede, cuddle with my dog Jake, and sleep in my bed...that's all and I promise I'll come right back!
And I got really upset the other night after dance because I also really miss TTSD! It has seriously been a huge part of my life and I miss Tuesday ballet, all of the teachers, the hardcore cardio class we started last year and just everything about it. Dance also has helped me a lot in my life, it was always a place for me to try an let go and express myself. It is just what I need sometimes to make myself feel better, but its a lot harder with hip-hop (which is what I am doing here.) It's also a different kind of hip-hop than I have ever done...its just harder to let loose. But I guess its just all a part of the experience trying new things, getting different perspectives on things, and at least I am getting to dance. I have decided I am just going to work extremely hard on my own with ballet while I am here because I need it sometimes and I also want to be even better when I return than when I left.
Even when I am with a bunch of people, I feel so alone; I am kind of used to it because that is sort of how I felt back home too. Here though it is definitely the language barrier. And I feel like my danish is bad and I am not improving much. Haha, I'm going to start reading some little kid books to see if that will help some. But even though I have been sad my friends at school always make me feel better and take my mind off of it. I am so very happy that I got put into this class because I know that other exchange students have had problems with their classmates not talking to them much and stuff. I honestly don't know what I would do if that was the case for me. I really like them; they are so nice and I don't think they realize how important they are to me. :) I was really worried about making friends haha.
School is boring. At least because I don't understand I don't have to do most of the work that everyone else has to. I am going to have such a hard time next year when I go from doing almost nothing to doing IB! It is also going to be extremely hard going from the Gymnasium back to MCHS! It is just so relaxed here I still can't get over it. I like it this way sooo much more!! Massena is just going to seem so much worse than it already was!
Right now, I still have two months worth of allowance from Rotary! Since everything here is so damn expensive, I am always too afraid to buy anything because I don't want to be poor. I also heard most people gain weight on exchange...so far I've actually lost a little weight. I'm so lucky! I unfortunately though still haven't taken many pictures. I am really going to hate myself for that in the end. It is just so awkward taking pictures of everything!
Even though I am not feeling the best right now I know it is going to get much much better! Once my language improves I think things will be great! I have kind of been slaking by being lazy so I need to start keeping myself busy, I mean I only have 9 months left here so I really don't want to waist a single second of it!
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